Love Is Here

When I learned of my husband's pornography addiction, I began to wonder how he could love me and love pornography at the same time. It didn't seem to me like it could be possible to have room in his heart for both, so I began to question whether any part of our marriage had been real.

It took me many months to sift through those questions and to realize that yes, he did in fact love me. The pornography had so engulfed him for so long that he was unable to break free on his own. The fact that he confessed and sought help eventually showed me that he did truly love me. This was not an easy realization though.

During the initial months of this storm, I found it difficult to survive. I desperately needed God's truth, but felt so weighed down with emotion and devastation that turning to my Bible seemed impossible on most days. But one ray of hope that revealed God's truth and His love to me was Christian music. I'm so grateful for Christian radio and Christian artists because music can reach us and touch us when we're doing life without our noses in our Bibles or at church. Like when we're driving, eating a meal, taking a shower or crying on the bathroom floor.

The group whose music touched me the most during this time was Tenth Avenue North. I love their album Over and Underneath. The video to my favorite song is below, I pray that it will bless you! I listened to this song over and over and over, with tears gushing down my face in realization that God loved me and that His love was available to me during this lowest point of my life.

Tenth Avenue North - Love Is Here from Provident Label Group on Vimeo.