Hosanna!

Hello Ladies,

Today I wanted to share a song with you that has been very important to me in my healing journey. Before my husband's confession in 2009, I had heard this song many times. But it wasn't until months afterward that this song took on new meaning for me.

One Sunday in church, the worship band sang this song and the tears would not stop flowing from my eyes. About three and a half minutes into the song, the lyrics say, "Break my heart for what breaks yours, everything I am for your kindgom's cause."

At the time, my heart was truly broken over my husband's addiction. I would walk into church every week, a mess on the inside, but I continutally acted as though nothing was wrong so that no one would know. I felt so lonely and sad.

As I heard those words that particular Sunday, I realized that God had allowed my heart to be broken over pornography and its detrimental effects because it's something that truly breaks His. I realized then that this would be part of my ministry -- to reach out to the women who are also affected by this tragedy. Perhaps it will become part of your ministry as well.

Today I decided to look up the meaning of the word Hosanna. Its original meaning in the Old Testament is Save please, deliver us or we pray. In the New Testament it takes on a meaning of praise for the Messiah. I find both definitions especially meaningful to us as we seek healing for our hearts.

Dear God,

Hosanna! We praise you for knowing us and seeing us as we walk through the aftermath of this storm. We pray that you will save and deliver us from this hard place. We pray for our marriages to be restored, we pray for our husbands to be delivered from their struggles with sexual purity. We know that you have allowed our hearts to be broken over pornography entering our marriages, and we pray that it's for the ultimate glory of your kingdom. We know that you work all things for good, even something as terrible as pornography. We thank you in advance for the work you will do. We love you!